Where I am currently
The other day I read a blog post by an inspiring young woman that made me truly come to grips with where I am currently as it concerns my body. In my last post I mentioned that I have been resting, giving myself the opportunity to fully be. As we know our bodies play a vital role in our existence and as such to "fully be" we need to consciously factor in self-care.
I recently finished reading the book “As a Man Thinketh” by James Allen. I want to share with you a few thoughts from the book I was reminded of after reading my friend's blog, these thoughts are outlined below:
““A man is literally what he thinks, his character being the complete sum of all his thoughts.”
”A man does not come to the almshouse of jail by the tyranny of fate or circumstance, but by the pathway of groveling thoughts and base desires. “
”Change of diet will not help a man who will not change his thoughts. When a man makes his thoughts pure, he no longer desires impure food.”
”If you would protect your body, guard your mind. If you would renew your body, beautify your mind. Thoughts of malice, envy, disappointment, despondency, rob the body of its health and grace.”
”The body is the servant of the mind.””
In 2009, my battle with depression got REAL. I was just accepted into an undergrad programme in Indiana and was about to begin the journey to realizing my dreams. Prior to being accepted, I was fresh out of a rebellious stage where I was rebelling against being different, rebelling against being a leader. I found myself in a comprising, character shaping crisis and truly thought all hope was lost for me to redeem myself.
To cut a long story short, I ended up being away from my family and found myself coming to grips with the decisions I had made. For months I spiraled into a dark place of depression where self-pity, self-hate and food were my best friends. The 150 lb young woman that left Cayman in 2009 was almost 200 lb by the time of graduation. I share this with you all today, because I have come to the realization as James Allen pointed out, "The body is the servant of the mind". The condition of my thoughts had a direct correlation with the condition of my body.
Since 2012, I have been trying to push past depression and come into a healthier state of mind. It has been very up and down and I know now that I am my biggest enemy. The thoughts of others don't concern me as much as the thoughts I have about myself. My Savior King constantly reminds me of my beauty, His love for me and His ability to make me whole.
“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness. ”
I have finally come to grips with the fact that for me to take back control of my body (God's gift to me), I need to change the way I think. This is no easy feat, believe me, I have been having the fight of my life. However, having people like Brianna Wilkerson lead by example gives the encouragement we all need to keep going.
Where I am currently is a place of self discovery and what I am discovering is life is for the living; to fully live a life poured out we need to have healthy vessels (our bodies).
I encourage you to read Bri's blog post and to do so click here. Be encouraged today and know that the one who created you takes pleasure in you. Take some time to ask Him to show the way forward. The song below "You Know Me" is one I play to remind myself that He KNOWS me and nothing will ever change that.
Thanks for reading and feel free to share with others!