Alone But Never Lonely

It’s me you see and no one else.

I chose to be here and nowhere else.

My life is not what I had imagined.

I feel lucky, no, I’m more highly favoured than you could ever imagine.

I often find myself searching for…

For someone to complete me.

But last night God told me it was He who is supposed to complete me.

Odd huh? I would think so too.

But the way he told me I knew it couldn’t be Kazoo.

It’s like I was on the verge of falling in love again.

He told me quick, get up, grab your paper and pen.

He said; write your feelings on that piece of paper.

Don’t tell anybody else because I’m the true secret keeper.

So here I am venting to my Lord.

I said, I’m falling in love and I don’t know how I opened this door.

I try to shake these feelings but they get stronger each time.

The skinny boy won’t go away;

He just remains steady on my mind.

Daddy you’re my first love and you’re going to be my last.

So why do I find myself putting on this facade and hiding behind this mask?

He showed up just in time to save me from myself.

He doesn’t have to see my face to know that I need help.

How can I love him and you at the same time?

Lord Jesus, I feel like I’m losing my mind.

Lord, I come to you because you alone can truly see.

My friends are here but they’re blind, they can’t see.

Your word tells me I should pray and I should fast.

I am half way there because I just forgot my past.

These dudes, they’re coming at me from every single angle.

There is this one dude that looks like Chris Cringle Lol.

I thought I was lonely but I was wrong.

I was insecure.

Not of myself but of my Saviour,

The one I adore.

He told me he’d take care of me and I underestimated him.

He said, “Toya I am calling you to be alone but not lonely.

I want to tell things that you can only hear from me.

I am calling you to be set apart from the rest. I’m trying to get you prepared for the test.

You see the devil isn’t only trying to kill you;

He wants that thing that lives eternally within you!

Your Soul, that’s what he’s after.

He’ll trick you with Mr. Wrong and promise you that you’ll live happily ever after.

Your heart, I need you to guard it.”

I said, “I’m not doing a good job, so here it is just take it”.

Now my heart is spoken for.

Heartache, I no longer fight that war. Submissive to his will that’s my main focus.

We were a good combination, no one can touch this.

He is my one and only.

So let’s get this right, I may be alone but I’m NEVER LONELY!